Monday Moaning: Dementia Moved In

The image is click-bait but that's always been part of the game, and a major part of my game since I started blogging at Sporting News back in 2007...But I always found a way to tie it in with the post...I carried it on with me here and at the now defunct YouGabSports....

-I had a couple of masterpiece blogs in the bullpen...They were going to get me noticed by Barstool Sports who would offer me a job...(yeah, right!)But with the murder of George Floyd, the ensuing protests, the hate spewed by the President and his ignorant supporters who hold the Confederate Traitors in such high regard, I scrapped those...I didn't blog...I just carpet bombed social media facts, truth, reality, history, and quick rants...I got flagged on Facebook for things that were factually correct but Anti-Trump and Anti-Racism...I got unfollowed by plenty of people, which is fine...If you're a racist...If you are ok with people flying Nazi and Confederate flags, I don't want to know you and don't want you around....I got suspended on Twitter twice...A week for tweeting at Drew Brees that he "is a fucking idiot"....My first tweet back was at Twitter and their owners, pointing out the hypocritical bullshit standards they have...And then I retweeted porn clips that are allowed on twitter at them...

-One blog shredding MLB for being a bunch of greedy fucks who are killing their game and are about to lose the dog days of Summer to the NHL...The NHL is planning to have their playoffs (the best playoffs of all sports) in July, August and September...Pushing the start of next season back, and if they stick with it that way they can continue starting their season later, and having their playoffs in the Summer, sports dead zone, when many people get extra casual with Baseball until it gets closer to September....But with Billionaire owners and millionaire players fighting over money, more and more people are going to care less and less about a sport who's core fanbase is dying...


-I had done  series of "COVID Blogs"...Those stopped This next section was going to be one in the series...A month into the COVID shutdown, we moved my Mother-in-Law in with us...My wife, three kids, two dogs, myself and my dementia riddled Mother-in-Law...She was in assisted living and was locked down, stuck in her room for over month...No visitors allowed, no activities, no dining room...It scrambled her already fragile brain even more...When we saw her outside of the place on her birthday, my wife and I knew we had to get her out...So she's here with us...My Father-in-Law went down this same road so we knew to some extent what we were getting into...But it's bad...It's hard...

The kids were doing school from home...The wife works from home...there's limited separation people can get...We get bombarded with the same questions over and over again...The last 20 years don't exist...She doesn't know who I am, except that I cook for her and answer questions...There are times she doesn't know my wife...

We made a answer sheet for her to keep...When she starts asking questions we tell her to look at it...She would ask a question, you would answer and she would ask it again immediately...She looked at the sheet and said, "This is my daughters house?" I said yes...She then said "Is she still alive?"...Which was when the most blunt thing I could say fell out of my face..."If she was dead you wouldn't live here."  I felt awful, but she forgot it within seconds...

My day often starts with making her Tea and toast or an English muffin with orange marmalade...Once she is sitting down eating and working on a puzzle I go and check to see if I have to mop the floor in her bedroom, the hallway and the bathroom, as she likes to take her diapers off during the night and often leaves a trail of pee.... 

It's hard seeing someone fall apart in front of you...It's hard on my wife, as her mother often seems ungrateful for what we do for her...At night she becomes child-like, wants to "break rules" and gets pissy with my wife...We had to put up a baby gate to try and prevent her from roaming around the house at night while everyone is asleep...She loves to search for cookies between 11:00 PM and 4:00 AM...We have signs on doors to help her and prevent her taking a header down the basement steps....

The one thing makes my wife nuts...Her mother will go to the bathroom door wide open, doing her business, everything hanging out...But then when she's done, she pulls the door shut behind her...WTF!?!

If 2020 didn't suck bad enough, especially for the kids, my oldest having her senior year of high school kicked in the balls...She gave up her room for her Grandmother and moved into her little sister's room...And Grandma has no idea who our kids are...She had lived everyday for over two months with them and looks at them like strangers...We spent so many weekends visiting...Personal time and vacation time spent with my in-laws...Moved to fucking Erie to take care of things for them....and she has no memory of them or any of it...There are moments when I talk to her and she looks at me like 'Who the fuck are you and what are you doing here.?'

As frustrated and annoyed as I get, I have to remind myself that my wife is watching her mother's brain turn to pudding right in front of her everyday...I don't know how my wife deals with it so calmly...Well, she does like to hit the bottle like the piece of click-bait at the top of this post! 

That's what's been going on in my world...

Have a drink...Stay safe...Stay strong...Don't be a racist...Help fight for positive change in this country and world...And love...Love your family...No matter what, love your family.

The Last Year Sucked

It's been a long time since I've done this...Honestly, I may have forgotten how to do it...In my blogging/writing prime, I was posting multiple blogs a day and I was definitely writing every day...Then my life changed drastically and in many ways...I lost time and the drive to write every day...I slipped down to one day a week until I just stopped...Why did I stop...Mainly, because I had written honestly, and was an open book, and I no longer wanted to let everything flow out of me...I didn't want to dig into certain feelings, nor did I want to share much of them...

I think now is time...I think I need to...Because I have become a depressed lump of shit...If you know me, or read the blogs back in the day, you know I've always had a angry streak...The anger is still there, it's not going anywhere...But the depression has built and built...

The Changes 

A few years ago, we moved from Cleveland to Erie, PA...We did it for good reasons...To help my in-laws...Both dealing with dementia...At the time, my Mother was battling cancer...But at that point things were looking positive...She was getting better...She had a brutal battle, but the docs were feeling great with her results...I hated breaking the news to my parents...I felt like I was betraying them...But they understood and supported us...They may have been pissed at us, but they never showed it...

Also, I left my life long career in the restaurant business...That was a plus in the sense that the life is tough for a family...But I loved that evil business...I still have dreams about those days, and one day will find my way into owning my own place...

Then Shit Got Worse

My Mother's cancer came back with a vengeance...It was brutal...Then I quit writing, the day I accepted the fact that my Mom was dying...I played the positive bullshit card as much as I could for the kids, but it was over a good time before she passed...I had fully accepted and mentally prepared myself that she was leaving...There is only one single guarantee about life...It will end...

In a couple days, it will be the one year anniversary of my Mother's death...She was in the hospital, they were managing her pain, and the last week, I was driving into Cleveland every evening and sending the night with her...My brothers and I took shifts along with my dad staying with her...That last morning, I knew she was going that day...I told her we'd be ok...I'll told her it was ok to go...She didn't need to fight for us anymore...When I was getting ready to go, my Dad said, "I'll give you a minute to say goodbye"...He hadn't done that before...He knew too...We all did...So I wasn't surprised when he called a few hours later and told me she was gone...

I got out of bed, and waited for my wife and kids to get home...They had gone to see my mother-in-law...I broke the news to them...The tears flowed, except from me...I'm the dad...At that time, I can't cry...I have to be their rock...I will never forget when my Grandfather (my dad's father) died...I didn't see my father cry...He was a rock for everyone...The day of the funeral, after it was all done, and he had handled what he had to...He went upstairs alone, and for the first time in my young life, I heard my father cry...But I didn't see it...It didn't see him cry until my Mom, his wife of 47 years died....

After I told the kids, and things settled down, I went to take a shower...But first I sat on the bathroom floor crying, and silently telling my Mom I was sorry..."I'm sorry I left you, I'm so sorry"...People tell me I can't beat myself up for moving...People will say they understand, and I didn't do anything wrong...They may be right, but I can't shake the feeling that I betrayed my mom, or that I let her down...

Firsts 

Since that day, every day has been the first something without Mom...And let me tell you, The first Christmas, and first birthday and first this and that (big days) suck an epic sack of balls...But very single day has sucked, because so many of those days are days that I would have called her, or she would have called us...So many things happen and I think, I gotta call Mom and tell her this...FUCK! Kick in the head! I can't call Mom ever again...There is so much we assumed she'd be around for and now life sucks so much more because she's not around for any of it.

I have dreams about my mom and wake up, and the first thought is 'SHIT!' It was a dream...Back to reality...Shitty steaming pile of reality....

I miss Mom every day, if only in the littlest way...A small flower popped up in our yard...My first thought was 'Mom'...I have barely listened to the Beatles in the last year...I hear the Beatles and all I can think of is my Mom...Every Beatles song makes me sad these days...She loved music...Lots of different music, but for me, the Beatles mean Mom...

Where Do I Go From Here

People say when someone you love dies, that it'll get easier...When my grandfathers died, it got easier, but I was young...When my cousin died, I got mad, and found myself questioning every bit of the Catholic religion I was raised in...I was still young and it got easier and kicked my brain into gear when questioning shit...But this is different...This is my Mom...My kids grandmother...A woman I could ask anything, tell anything, and would offer any and all help she could give, and support anything I did...Anything my brothers did...Anything my wife and kids did or needed...I don't know how this gets easier...I don't know how I stop being mad at myself...I don't know how I stop being sad...I'll never stop missing her.


The last year has sucked...There have been good things that have happened...There have been fun times...But it's all overshadowed by the fact that Mom is gone...That I couldn't share it with her...That the kids couldn't tell her about it...

How the fuck does it get better?

Monday Moaning

It's Memorial Day and I honestly don't feel much like writing...I spent Sunday with Little Beeze and myself both sick...He's really feeling shitty...just wrecked...I could trudge but I was finding myself on the shitter way too often...It was a real bummer because I spent some time Saturday whipping up and awesome slaw for a party friends were having Sunday...We were really looking forward to it, but then the boy got sick...There was talk of our oldest staying with him while we went briefly, she was feeling lazy after having a couple friends sleep over Saturday night, and of course they were up all night...But then my issues started, and the day was kicked in the head....

Yes, spare me the lecture that Memorial day isn't about cookouts and parties...I know, I actually read history books...Nonetheless it is a time when we happen to make time to see people we maybe haven't for awhile, so take a breath...We're hoping the boy will be up for going to the Parade Monday morning in our neighborhood...molls is very excited...

The big news in Cleveland, beside the Cavs, which I have yet to catch that fever, and don't plan on getting it...but the other news broke Saturday morning when the verdict on Officer Brelo came down...What a judge...Dropping the verdict on a Saturday morning, during a holiday weekend...Stellar move if you ask me...People are moving slow Saturday morning...So their protesting game took a hit...Brelo was on trial for shooting and killing too people who had lead police on a 22 mile high speed chase, and then had rammed a police car...There were over a hundred bullets fired, by a bunch of cops, but this poor bastard was the guy thrown on the grenade...Well, he got off...And the judge went into great length and detail explaining why... Here is a LINK to the entire transcript of the judge's decision....

Personally, here's my view...Mistakes were made...It's easy to say that after the fact...And when a bunch of cops put over 100 bullets in the car, why was one guy taking all the heat? But in my opinion, the most important part of this whole thing is, things wouldn't have gone so badly, and two people wouldn't have died, if these two dolts just would have pulled over...As I heard the two dozen protesters yelling "Hands up don't shoot!" I got really frustrated...These two didn't have their hands up, they were fleeing the police, and then rammed a police car...Then I saw the same phrase hash-tagged all over twitter, so I started tweeting comments ending with #PulloverDontRun...

The local media was very proud of how peaceful Cleveland was, but there were 71 arrests as the day moved into the night and people started acting dumb....They didn't bother to show this...




Yep, people were out enjoying the nice weather, having some dinner, and "protesters" started getting physical, throwing stuff, and spraying random people with pepper spray....Again I'll say it...People will not sympathize with your cause when you act like an asshole...Speak your mind...Have rallies...Protest...Go for it...But when you stop being peaceful, you lost all ground.


-As for sports, the New York Rangers, Tampa Bay Lightning series has been driving me crazy...While Lundqvist is the better goalie, the Lightning look to be the better team...Better speed, better passing, better scoring chances...The Rangers are a defense first team, and when they have the lead, they lay back and play only defense. (except in game 4)...But their defense has been picked apart by great passing and speed in this series...Tampa Bay keeps their foot on the gas the entire game...they play good defense, but they never stop looking for a chance at more offense...The Lightning are up 3-2, and I'm losing the hope I had after game 4...The Rangers were so flat in the third period, I put on M*A*S*H* the movie...Such a great, classic!

I hated when the Rangers traded for old man Martin St. Louis...I hated when they signed even older man Dan Boyle...(you can look up the old blogs and tweets)...And I wasn't please when they traded their first round pick, and top prospect Arizona for Keith Yandle...Everyone said Yandle would be the perfect QB for the power play...He doesn't even play on the top power play unit now...His Defense sucks and his offense is weak...Yeah, he got a goal the other night...The shot was going 6 feet wide, when it hit a Tampa Bay defenseman's leg and deflected in...Dude blows!

-Anyways...I feel like crap...I'm going to lay down...Have a good Memorial Day...Have fun...and if at some point you forget what the day is about, sit in front of the TV and put on "Band of Brothers" or "The Pacific" or "Hamburger Hill" and then maybe it will come back to you,  just how lucky we are to live in a country where people (right or wrong) can protest, and the brave few are why.

Have a week.

Monday Moaning

Welcome one and all to the new and improved You Gab Sports...A server company that doesn't suck balls...Nice, fresh, clean look...Almost like we're slowly becoming adults now...

I gotta ask, did any of you notice the dog is wearing a tie?

It wasn't that long ago I was ready to walk away from writing and from my share of YGS...But the crew here showed me a ton of support, and after talking with Sully, Jeff, and B.O.B. I knew that I needed to stay...And a BIG thanks to B.O.B. for all his hard work he put in to getting things worked out with this new site...

A big reason for me considering hanging it up, is my lack of interest in sports...It's still present...I'm into Hockey, just limited time to follow...I'm not ready for Baseball yet, but I'll get there...I'm so fucking sick of football...Which sounds like a sin in Cleveland, but to me it perfect sense...The Browns suck...They haven't done shit in free agency...Players are running away from here...Past draft picks are looking bad...But what is the number one topic in Cleveland...The Browns...'What are they gonna do in the draft!?!'   Ummm, probably shit the bed again!

True story: Saturday night the Mrs. and I were sitting in a local steakhouse...I was drinking Moscow Mules and eating Prime Rib...She was drinking Red Wine and eating a Filet...And this asshole table of six next to us wouldn't stop talking about the Browns...Across the room, the Indians Spring Training game was on...just acouple nights ago Kyrie Irving went bat-shit crazy for something like 57 points...(I only know because twitter was going nuts)...March Madness is getting ramped up...And these twats were talking about "What a great value signing Josh McCown is."  And "They're gonna need to draft another quarterback."  and "Manziel has a good head on his shoulders."  WHAT!  That guy must be fucking hammered! and on and on and on...

Listen, I hate basketball, and don't watch it...But if you're Mr. Fucking Cleveland Fan, put on the Cavs...They're playing right now, and they aren't a steaming pile of shit...The Indians season starts in what, 25 days...They have the reigning Cy Young winner...Some good talent...An excellent manager...Talk about the Tribe!  At least take a fucking month off of talking about the city's biggest scam artists, The Browns...

Yes, Scam artists...They say they're a NFL team, but they look like shit...They say they're changing the logo, but it's still a stupid orange helmet...They religiously suck, continue to raise ticket prices, and people keep filling the seats...They're scamming you! Wake up!

Last week, On Tuesday I posted a short Monday Moaning with my feel good story...I pulled it from the Chicago Blackhawks who have a great campaign going on called #WhatsYourGoal...Search them out when you have free time...It's good stuff...

This week's feel good story is from some Middle School basketball players and one of their Cheerleaders who has Downs Syndrome...





Yeah, that's a good one!

-Now lastly...Everyone is getting geared up because it's tourney time...Filling out those brackets...Let me just clue you in to the big winner...Yeah, I don't follow basketball a damn bit, but I'm fully confident in saying that the Notre Dame Fighting Irish are going to take the whole damn thing!


-I hope you all enjoy the new look Gab, we're looking to take this place to the next level, and we're very excited about it...Tell a friend...Share a link...

Have a week.

Monday Moaning...A Day Late...Again!

 

 

So, My week went a bit sideways last week, and shit kept getting screwed up all weekend...So, I'm a little late posting....This one will be very short and very sweet, as I just haven't had the time to do all I want to...

Last week I posted a awesome story that involved St. Louis Blues winger, T.J. Oshie, and I said I was going to try to keep mixing in positive stories from sports, because so much of we get is the negative...This week we stay with Hockey, because Hockey is the shit!

This week we have the story of Cammy, and Chicago Blackhawks defenseman Duncan Keith...





Like I said...Very short and Very Sweet...

Have a week.

Monday Moaning

It's Monday and the NHL Trade Deadline is fast approaching...and while some teams made minor moves last week, like the CRIPPLE_FOR_A_CRIPPLING_CONTRACT_TRADE,  but I expect some big activity Monday...Although my New York Rangers got started Sunday...Trading defenseman John Moore, very elite prospect, Anthony Duclair and a 1st and 2nd round draft picks to the Coyotes for the defenseman most teams would like to add, Keith Yandle, and defenseman Chris Summers, along with a 4th round draft pick...The Coyotes are also retaining 50% of Yandle's contract which has one more year left on it...

The Rangers then moved Lee Stempniak to Winnipeg for Carl Klingberg...As well as acquiring James Sheppard from San Jose for a 4th round pick...I expect to see San Jose dump a couple more players as it seems they are throwing in the towel on their playoff hopes...Unlike the Rangers who are all in, Cup or Bust...

Other trades that have taken place so far...

Washington added some more grit mixed with skill acquiring Curtis Glencross from Calgary for a 2nd and a 3rd'er...

Chicago landed another very talked about Coyote, Antoine Vermette for defenseman Klas Dahlbeck and a 1st round pick...The Blackhawks also landed Kimmo Timonen from Philly for and 2nd and 4th...

Florida overpaid New Jersey with a 2nd and 3rd for old man Jaromir Jagr...

Pittsburgh added some bulk with Daniel Winnik for a prospect a 2nd and a 4th...

-In other Hockey related news...Many Americans fell in love with watching T.J. Oshie in the Olympics...He plays the game well in all aspects...And he does some other cool stuff...Just watch!





We don't get to see enough of these stories in the sports world...We get far too many stories of domestic abuse, drug use, DUI's, assault, and other idiot shit....Hell, I've heard more about a tape that may exist involving Dez Bryant, in the last week, then I have about athletes doing good deeds in the last 6 months...So is the problem the athletes? the Media? Or our voyeuristic need to catch people doing bad shit?  Probably a combination of them all...

I know in my posts I hit on the negative more then the positive...So I'm going to start looking and searching some of these positive stories...

But that's after I do my Beatles Research...I saw this Sunday night after getting home from work...




I always blew off all the Beatles "Hidden Messages" stuff, but now I figure I'll be up until 3:00 AM digging into all of it...

That's it for now...

Have a week...

The Beeze.

The Browns do it Again...

Do what again, you ask?

DISAPPOINT!

My father got to experience some greatness from the Browns during his life...Me, all I've gotten is disappointment...Which let to me completely turning my back on them more than a few years ago...

Over the last two weeks all the media in Cleveland has been buzzing about the Browns "changing their logo and uniforms...There was much speculation and rumor...Countless fan ideas posted around the Internet...But they were all wrong...As you can see from the picture above, the changes are minor...The helmet/logo is the same, with the exception of a brown facemask, and deeper shade of orange...It was said last night that the orange will probably be more metallic, the way we have seen so many college helmets go...

The Dawg for the Dawg Pound got re-worked too...Big fucking deal!

Here is the official release from the Browns website...

Yep...There it is...And now they will start hyping the unveiling of what little they're going to do to the uniforms...This is it...This is the big news in Cleveland...

So lets just rundown the Browns top offseason news stories...

- Johnny Manziel goes to rehab...

- Josh Gordon fails another drug/alcohol test and will suspended for at least the entire season...

- GM Ray Farmer admits to texting down to the sidelines, giving input on personnel and play calls...(some say he jumped on that grenade for owner Jimmy Haslam, as it was originally reported that Haslam was doing the texting)

- And the Browns change their logo...A brighter orange and a brown facemask...HOLY FUCKING CHANGE!  Jesus this organization is just one letdown after another...

The best thing about the promotion I got this past year, is that I work every Sunday...Even in the past when I didn't work Sundays, I tried to avoid the Browns, but I would catch some...I would watch a bit and all that frustration would come back...It's so nice having that out of my life...

But all week, I heard the guys at work talking about this big change...All their speculation...And of course the TV news guys getting all moist hyping it up....How disappointed they all must have been when they saw this release...I wonder how that Shill Jim Donovan will spin this into a great fucking thing...

I hope it was all you dreamed it would be Cleveland...

Looking forward to hearing you get hyped for the draft, just to be disappointed again...

the Beeze.

Monday Moaning

I hope all had a good week...The first two days I was at work for about 26 hours...Then I was on vacation the rest of the week...Not for anything exciting...The Mrs. had to have some minor surgery, so I had to be around for that and to be Mr. Mom...Something I didn't mind too much...I haven't had a lot of time with the kids lately...Too bad it's in the negative degrees category....But we don't have 8 feet of snow like they do in Boston, so fuck it!

I've spent too much time hearing this fucking 50 Shades of Grey movie/book...From everything I've read it's a story that if it was happening in real life, women would be telling their friend to stay away from this asshole, abusive creep...But it was book that got women moist, so they (generally speaking...Not all of you) are all drooling over it, and calling it a sexy love story...Mind you, if you tried to get your wife/girlfriend to do some of the shit this guy does with his chick, she'd tell you to go to hell...For fuck's sake, how many of these skirts that are all moist over this movie/book, won't watch hardcore porn with you...Most of them right...My wife liked the book...Wants to see the movie...Won't watch hardcore porn with me...Shit, she won't let me tie her up, and whip the shit out of her either....WHAT THE FUCK!

Fuck that movie...You can lick the 50 shades out of my ass!

-Saturday night I was watching the Notre Dame vs. Providence hockey game...And jumping to the Bluejackets vs. Islanders game...You know, 'cause I'm a man!  Then while looking at my phone, I saw something on Twitter about there being a fashion show at the NBA "All-star" weekend...Now I already had no respect for basketball and the NBA, but when I saw that, I knew there was no hope for that silly game...Yeah, I get it...All these guys want to be music and fashion moguls like their idiot hero, Jay-Z...You know they guy that built himself up from being a drug dealer...Fucking dolts!

-And while I'm dogging basketball...Sunday I was given another reason to never support the Cavaliers...Hell, really all pro-sports in this town probably....I have often ripped on this city, and reading THIS article, the whole damn county is full of and run by fucking idiots!

Taxpayers have paid out $154,852,113 for cost overruns for the Quicken Loans Arena and other bullshit in the Gateway area...(Progressive Field and shit)...$88,701,131 came from the "general fund"....I don't know, I would think we would want to use that "general fund" money on important stuff, like our shitty schools, police and fire departments who are always the first to take cuts when their is a budget crunch....Maybe fix a couple of these bridges...Or rehab a shit neighborhood that we've ignored forever...Nope...And Cavs owner Dan Gilbert and city officials think we should continue to do so for another 17 years...17 more years of paying for their cost overruns...NBA teams will share $2.66 billion in TV revenue this year, but aren't expected to pay for any of their buildings costs....And While I'm dumping of Cleveland and Cuyahoga County, this shit goes on all over this country...

Dan Gilbert, you won't see me in your Casinos, or at you basketball teams games, or doing anything to put my money in your pockets...That is except for the money you and the county officials are stealing from me...Fucking whores!

-Lastly, I joked about a month ago, that I was going to get out my old art supplies and start working on my career as an offensive cartoonist...Well, Friday the kids and I went to the one art store and loaded up on stuff so we could do some projects and keep them out of  Mom's hair...A kit for making necklaces for the girls...Clay and paper and glue sticks for Molly and Tomas...this and that...And I got a sketch pad, pencils, and a set of drawing pens...I knocked a few things...It was fun to be drawing again...I even did my first stereotypical, Islamic terrorist...Then Saturday another cartoonist had an attempt on his life in Denmark...Then another shooting in Denmark...

So, Sunday I was inspired...I did a quick sketch that would not be liked by certain Islamic assholes...I planned on posting it...But my wife would prefer I didn't...Now me writing this probably doesn't help...I'm sure is some nut-jobs that hate me and want me dead just for typing that I drew some bullshit...Hell, they'd probably want me dead for half the blogs I've written....But out of respect for my wife, for now I won't post it...For now...Maybe I'll work on it...Get it just right!

That said, fuck these assholes...And these ISIS fuck stains...These twats need to all be wiped out...I actually sat and watched the video of the Jordanian pilot being burned alive...Just to be clear, the guy doing their videos could have had a career in Hollywood...that's' how well it was done...You actually forgot what you were watching was real life...That's how well it was shot, and edited...But then I slapped myself, and reminded myself that this shit was real...So I am all for these fuck-sticks being wiped off the face of the Earth...And Initially I was the guy saying, fuck it...They're over there....Let all those bitch-ass countries in the Middle-East handle it...Handle their own mess...Clean up their own damn neighborhood...But the fact of the matter is, is that these assholes have passports...they're from countries all over the world, and they're running around Europe shooting cartoonists...

So, can the dipshits in the Middle-East, and fuckers in Europe, and us, and everyone else with a slight bit of sanity get together and end these pricks, so my wife won't fear for my family's lives because I wrote a blog, or drew a picture that might upset some fucking twat!

Have a week...

The Beeze.

Monday Moaning

How was your weekend? Not as fun as it would have been if you were with her I'm guessing...

I had some quality time with the kids Saturday...Building snow forts with my son and Molly, and sledding down our mini hill...As much as I was disliking Winter in my post on late Friday night/Saturday morning, kids know how to make it fun....

Later that evening, I took my daughter to the Father/Daughter Dance at their school...That's always a nice time for us...The girls get to have fun together, and the dads get to shoot the shit and catch up...And yes, some quality one on one time with our girls...

-Did you see Gronk spiked the puck at a Bruins game this weekend? Of course you did!




Shit, it's Gronk...All he does, is catch passes, party, screw chicks, and spike shit...I hope he trademarks his damn spike before the NFL does, and screws him out of all kinds of cash...

-The Grammy's were Sunday....Luckily I had to work...But I saw some shit pop up on facebook and twitter....I guess that ass-hat Kanye West ran up on stage when Beck won "Album of the Year...He stopped himself, and played it off like a joke...But in a post show interview, made it clear he wasn't joking...

I just know that the Grammys, if they want real artists to keep coming back, they need to stop playing with us. We ain’t gonna play with them no more. “Flawless,” Beyoncé video. And Beck needs to respect artistry and he should have given his award to Beyoncé and at this point, we tired of it. Because what happens is when you keep on diminishing art and not respecting the craft and smacking people in the face after they deliver monumental feats of music, you’re disrespectful to inspiration. And we as musicians have to inspire people who go to work every day. And they listen to that Beyoncé album and they feel like it takes them to another place. Then they do this whole promotional event, that, you know, they’ll run the music over somebody’s speech, the artist, because they want a commercial advertising. Like no, we not playing with them no more. And by the way, I got my wife, I got my daughter, and I got my clothing line so I’m not going to do nothing to put my daughter at risk — but I am here to fight for creativity. That’s the reason why I didn’t say anything tonight. But y’all know what it meant when ‘Ye walked on the stage.

Okay, let me dissect the idiotic shit that just fell out of this fuck-tards face...Apparently, Beyoncé is the only fucking "Artist" out there...I'll be honest, I haven't heard her album, nor have I heard Beck's album...I'm no fan of Beck, but the guy writes all his shit...He plays all his shit...I would consider him an artist...Beck doesn't owe Beyoncé shit...I've heard, and read some of her lyrics...I even wrote a blog about one of her ignorant songs a couple years ago...People write music for Beyoncé to shake her ass to, (or "sample") and lay down her vocals over...Yeah, she can sing...Way to go!  I'm not that fucking impressed...

And who's fucking Beyoncé? Jay-Z or you...Because you're the guy constantly running to her defense...Are you just that thirsty for that ass you can't get? Or did you get it, and can't get enough...Last I saw, you had a disgustingly fat ass at home on your gash of a wife!

Next...Kanye, could you please go back to 5th grade fucking English class...Holy fucking, shit on a cracker...Were you having a competition with some one on who could use the worst fucking grammar?  Please, please give us just one more double negative, it makes you sound so fucking smart!

And since Kanye considers himself an artist as well...I just want to ask this...What has he written that was original...Not all that sweet "sampled" music...And not his stupid fucking lyrics...I can go to work today and get at least two guys to throw down a rap and it will be more original then the crap you constantly recycle...

Why are you threatening to not take part in the Grammy's anymore...Do everyone a favor...Don't show up...No one will miss you...I promise...Everyone is always happy to have one less giant fucking asshole at the party!

Also, referring to yourself as "Ye" really makes you sound a like a douche-snozzle...

Of all the rappers that get shot, why hasn't anyone shot this fucking dolt!

I think Kanye was a little pissed that he lost to Kendric Lamar as well!

I just looked at the list of winners....Who the fuck are these people...Ryan Adams lost...The Grammys suck balls!

-Lastly...Before I sat down to write...I watched the ESPN 30 for 30 "Miracles of Men"...I hate ESPN, but the 30 for 30 series is great...This one was about the opposing side of the "Miracle on Ice"...A look from the Russian players perspective...But it gives you the History of Hockey in Russia, up through the first Russian to getting into the NHL. ( He was on the 1980 team)...It's really good...Give it a watch.

Have a week...

The Beeze.

Is It Spring Yet?

It's official...I'm over this Winter shit...I have been thinking about how great it would be to move...Start a new adventure with my wife and kids...A fresh start, somewhere else...Take a chance...My wife and I have always wanted to go to the Pacific Northwest...Seattle, Portland, shit like that...The Mrs. and I joked about moving to Seattle...Thursday night, she came in from walking the dog...It was 4 degrees out...I had already had my fill earlier in the day shoveling the snow...She gave me a look...I pulled it my phone and looked at Seattle's weather...I said, "Honey, it's 57 degrees with a light rain in Seattle."  She replied, "Let's move!"  Unfortunately, there would be a serious pushback from our kids...Especially our oldest...

So for now, all I can do is look forward to Spring...I've always been a Fall and Winter guy, but as I get older, I can do without Winter...And with Spring comes Baseball...I miss Baseball...Not so much MLB...And not even Fantasy, which after winning two leagues  last year is surprising even to me...

Surprising to me, I miss coaching Baseball...This past Summer was the first time not coaching my son and a team in baseball, after 4 years of doing it...When I took my promotion at work, coaching was taken off the table...And my son decided not to play...I'm not sure how much of that had to do with me not coaching, but it bothered me that he didn't want to play...His attention deficit made it hard for him standing out in the field...But he was really good, without trying very hard...I was hoping to get him into the little details, but he just didn't want to do it...I wasn't going to push too hard...I never want to be the pushy sports dad...

I'll be honest, as I always try to do when I write...I've been finding myself getting depressed lately...Mostly late at night...There is a point that I should go to bed, but instead I stay up...I may watch a movie, or TV...But I slip off  into my head and just get into a funk...

One recent evening I started thinking about my days coaching...When I stopped, I had a feeling of relief, because my last season, there was a lot of bullshit with the rec department and the people running the league...It seemed the only people that gave a damn were about 6 of us coaches and a handful of parents per team...

But as I thought more, I really missed it...I was proud of how I coached...How I treated each kid the same...How they all got to play ever position...How if a kid on  my team made fun of a teammate or a kid on another team struggling, they ran a lap, and were warned not to do it again...And no parents gave me shit about it...They supported it...When I had a tiny girl, playing for the first time in her life, and learning everything from us, her teammates cheered for her when she was close to tears, and parents followed...They didn't bitch that I gave her extra time in the batter's box at practice, over their kid that had no problem hitting...They barked at the umps for calling a strike on a ball over her head...

I thought about a Saturday scrimmage another coach and I setup, because so many games got rained out the one year...We played 3 innings, then some kids had to go...We mixed up the remaining kids, along with some older siblings that were there and played another 3 innings just for fun...After that I had kids wanting to stay and have me throw them batting practice...kids from 8-12 years old, all taking turns, for almost 2 hours...My arm was shot...But we had a blast...

I was proud that parents asked to have their kid put on my team...I was surprised when at a high school football game this year with my oldest, multiple kids that had been on my teams, walked up and said "Hi coach!"

I'm not trying to toot my horn here...I'm not the best coach...I wasn't the best coach in the league...But kids on my teams got better each season, and they had fun...I learned more each year, about baseball, about kids, and myself...I'm proud of my time coaching, and I hope I can find a way back to it some day soon...

I miss practices...I  miss games...I don't miss saying, "Stop playing with the dirt!" (the t-ball days)....I miss a bit of the chaos...I miss getting on the Ump for a bad call...I miss coaching...I miss Baseball...


Now, I'm going to get a drink, and sit in the dark with my friends Kenny Burrell & John Coltrane...





The Beeze

Monday Moaning

I had some Seahawks cheerleaders all ready to post here, but I have to be fair...Let the victors have their day...The New England Patriots came from 10 points down, to win the "Super Bowl" 28-24 over the Seattle Seahawks...

And I have no problem with the Patriots...I have firmly said in the past that Tom Brady is the best QB of my lifetime...And in a normal year I would have been pulling for the Pats, but I signed with the Seahawks a few years back when I went free agent with my fandom...So I was all in...Molly and I rooting against my Boston born wife and her Pats...And I have to say, it was one of the best "Super Bowls" I've seen...It was a great game...But the ending hurt...

27 seconds on the clock...Seahawks on the 1, maybe 2 yard line...2nd down...And instead of feeding it to Marshawn Lynch, they decide to over think things and throw a quick slant on a pick play...And the Patriots corner jumped the route and snatched victory from the jaws of defeat...Pete Carroll took all the blame on himself...Good, he should have...It was THE DUMBEST PLAY CALL EVER!

Now, honestly my wife didn't care a whole lot...She's there like so many others, to see the commercials and possibly the halftime show...And I would like to thank the ad execs everywhere for the worst batch of "Super Bowl" commercials ever...There were two, maybe three that were funny...All the others were either really fucking depressing...Or just way too serious...There were at least 4 that tried to preach to us dads that we suck, and we should be better fathers...FUCK YOU! mother fucking judgmental fuck-stains...

I'm a fucking awesome dad...I walked away from the game to check on my oldest daughter who found out that after 3 dates with some little asshole, that he didn't like her...That's right, the big game is on, but my daughter is crying, so I'm trying to explain to her that there are gonna be a lot of stupid boys out there, and it will be okay, while telling Little Beeze to get the shovel because we're going to be burying a little fucking asshole tonight...(Lucky for him my wife didn't let us boys leave the house)...

Back to the commercials...While just about all of them sucked, the worst was a Nationwide Insurance commercial...A little boy telling us all the things he'll never do, because he died...Yep, some one is getting fired this Monday morning...Little Dead Kid has gone viral already...

Yeah, there's the dead kid...Depressing all the "Super Bowl" viewers...

Way to go Nationwide...Yeah, people are talking about your ad...People remember it...For all the wrong reasons...They were having fun, watching a great game, drinking, eating buffalo chicken dip, and you come in, pull down you pants, and take a big, steaming, depressing, dump all over the coffee table...FUCK YOU and your dead kid Nationwide!

This "Super Bowl" also had a quality injury...Although NBC was quite shy about showing it...Normally they replay a gross injury shot over and over...Nice INT Jeremy Lane...

 

Sorry about your wrist bro!

As for the halftime show...I wanted no part of that crap...I took a dump, then I took the dog for a walk...Little bastard loves the snow...Got a fucking blizzard going on, and he wants to play in the snow...Little asshole must think he has some Husky in him...

All my Boston friends and family...Congrats...Fucking city of champions! It was a great game...The only game I watched more then 10 minutes of this year...It was nice having a Sunday off of work with the fam...Stuffing my face, and being totally annoyed by the mess that is the NFL and horrible commercials...Oh, and that fucking idiot play call Pete Carroll!

I hope you all had a good "Super Bowl" Sunday...Now I'm going to shovel the driveway again...

Have a week...

The Beeze.

Friday Moaning

So, I took Monday off and saved my moaning for today...I sat at home Thursday night, just after dinner, and turned on the Nightly News on NBC...They lead off with the New England Patriots and their under-inflated footballs...Annoyed quickly I switched to ABC...They too were talking about the balls in New England, so I went to CBS, which honestly, I never watch...And yes, their lead story was also the soft balls in New England...What the fuck has this country become!?!

There are wars going on...Terrorists lopping off heads in the Mid-East...Murders going on every day, in every state of this country...Scientific breakthroughs and debates...an entire city (Washington DC) full of liars, cheaters, and thieves...There is important news going on everywhere, but the TV execs all decided to lead with footballs that were under-inflated...I was having a pretty good day until I realized just how stupid we are, that we let our news outlets get away with this shit...

So, while I have an opinion or two on this topic, I'm not going to write about it...I was actually thinking, this would be a great "Super Bowl"...Now, I don't give a shit...And while my wife is originally from Boston, and I have shown some slight allegiance to that town, I did sign my fandom over to the Seahawks a couple years ago....So I will be rooting for the Seahawks...Sorry Bostonians...

Okay, just one more thing on the soft footballs...Does anyone think that Bill and Brady were having fun talking to the media Thursday?




'Okay Bill, lets see how many times we can get away with saying balls, and make it sound dirty!'

Fucking Balls!

-So, while the media is talking about nonsense for another week before the "Super Bowl," the NHL has another one of their showcase events this weekend...Friday night they have their All-Star draft...the team captains draft their teams of those who were picked for the All-Star game...Saturday is the Skills Competition, which is almost always better then the actual game which will be Sunday...The game is much less physical and lacks defense...Goalies are just hung out to dry...

-One of the things we've been dealing with here is that our son has been diagnosed with a form of attention deficit...In second grade they said he was borderline...But it has gotten worse this year...Especially at school...Last year he had all A's and B's with an occasional C...This year it's been a struggle to keep his grades up...We've talked to the doctor a few times, and have tried a couple different meds...We're also trying to change his diet, which he wants no part of...But eating healthier could help a bit...

The only time he is locked in, and focused, and not distracted by anything is when he is drawing, working with clay, or playing games like Minecraft where he is building things...It's amazing how he can visualize things and just make it...Thursday he made this out of clay...

This character is called Foxy the Pirate...I am totally amazed by his talent...

I've been reading a lot about dealing with what he's going through...One description of it is like have six TV's on and not being able to focus on one...He has little quirks that honestly, I find annoying...But he can't control them, and some of them are his way of working through things...So what I've been discovering is what I need to do, (and it's not easy) is work on me...How I deal with him...How I except his quirks and not say, "knock it off, pay attention!"  It's also good that he knew he was having a problem...He was more then willing to go and talk to the doctor and try the meds...Which he never is...

It's a work in progress but I feel like we can get through it, and hopefully get to a point where he won't need meds...And I'm thrilled they haven't hindered his artistic ability...

The kid is amazing!

That's all I've got right now...

Have a weekend!

the Beeze.

Monday Moaning

Well, I guess that's one way to start the weeks off....

I'll be honest, I've sat here for an hour wondering what to write...I took a break, popped on some spank-vision and rubbed one out...then I thought about what to write some more...I didn't see any sports all weekend, I worked...I haven't seen any of the exciting Hockey going on at the World Junior Championship...There are things I want to write about, but I can't...I want them off my chest, but they are on the no write list in my house...One topic is on my personal "don't write, because she'll never fuck you again" list...So here I sit...

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Okay, so full disclosure here...I wrote a few paragraphs about a topic in the news right now...But it was awfully harsh...It was my honest thoughts, but it was brutal, and today is not the right time for that post...So I sat here blankly again...

Where am I going to go? I started thinking about recapping 2014...Maybe a best of...Personally 2014 sucked in my book...But I started looking at lists of the best songs, and movies and all that goofy shit...Best blah, blah, blah of 2014....Holy shit...First, the music on these lists was crap...I happy to realize I missed out so much garbage...I looked at Movies...Wow! The Mrs. and I need to get out more...BUT WE'E FUCKING BROKE!  There were a lot of movies I remember saying, "I ant to see that!"  So, We're going to have to do some serious catching up On Netflix...Sad, I can't even scrape out a bullshit list, because the year flew past me...

The Music lists were garbage...The best stuff released in 2014 that made it on my iphone, were Billy the Kid's "Horseshoes & Hand Grenades"...





The Gaslight Anthem's "Get Hurt"....Mean Creek's "Local Losers"...Foo Fighters "Sonic Highways"...And Ryan Adams self-titled album is phenomenal....Letterman's reaction says it all...





I started this process at 11:15 PM...It's now 2:15 AM....I apologize...I love writing...I love getting shit out of head, and off my chest...But all that's in there is crap I can't write about at this time, as much as I'd like to...I'm really trying to get things on track...

Best I can do sports-wise...Oregon will beat Ohio State...I don't care what the line is...I'm just calling it straight up...

And here's my bold "Super Bowl" prediction, from a guy who has watched about a total of 37 minutes of NFL football this season...New England and Seattle...

Sorry for this train-wreck...

The Beeze.

In Other News...

So, we're looking at a battle of the O's....

Oregon vs. Ohio State for College Football's new and improved National Championship...Go ahead and guess who I'm rooting for....Well shit, when these final four teams were picked I said then I was going with the Ducks....I hate FSU and Winston...Wow did he look like a fool! I hate Alabama and SEC country, which put me in the odd spot of rooting for Ohio State Thursday night...But you won't see me doing that again...Gotta strap on some green, or whatever damn color scheme the Ducks will be wearing for the big game!  I'm all in...Deep down inside I was meant to live in the Pacific Northwest!

-Earlier in the day I popped on the Cotton Bowl...But I quickly turned it off...1. ESPN has decided to change their in-game scoreboard graphic, which was taking up an eighth of the screen...2. They were playing the Cotton Bowl...But they weren't playing in the Cotton Bowl...It just didn't look right...I know this isn't the first time, but I'm old-school...You play the damn Cotton Bowl in the Cotton Bowl....

-Luckily there was something much better on TV to watch...The Winter Classic...

I had no rooting interest...Ok, slightly...Caps Goalie Braden Holtby is on my fantasy team, so I was glad to see him get the win...Also, the jerseys the Caps wore were the best looking ones they've ever had....The Blackhawks Jersey just had slight changes to their classic style...

The Winter Classic has become one of something the NHL has done well over the last few years...

I know they added extra outdoor games last year, and I feared it would be over-kill, but they haven't ruined it yet....Yet, is always a key word with the NHL...


-Earlier this week the Notre Dame Fighting Irish did their best to salvage their Football season...It started well, but the wheels fell off after the loss the FSU....But they managed to beat LSU...I hate LSU, LSU fans, and the SEC gasbags that will tell you a 4 loss SEC team should be in the National Championship over an undefeated team from anywhere else...So, while not thoroughly impressed with my Irish, I was still very pleased to beat those ass-hats...A win is a win...A win over a SEC team is even sweeter!

-So, it is 2015...Still feels a lot like 2014...2014 sucked for the most part in my own little world...I have hopes that 2015 is much better...The Holidays blew past me...It was a blur...For the first time in my life, I really didn't enjoy the Christmas season...I hate that feeling...Christmas Eve and morning I enjoyed seeing the kids enjoyment...but when it was all over, and Christmas night when everyone was in bed, I sat in my chair depressed...Not wanting it t o end, because I felt like I missed most of it...I stayed up late watching the last glimpses of Christmas movies...Sadly the last thing playing on TV was Christmas with the Kranks...Wow did that blow...

So, while I never make New Year's resolutions, this year I will...One, to get healthier...Two, no matter how, busy, tired, frustrated, and whatever else, I will get into, and enjoy the Christmas season of 2015 and not just get it done...Three, I'll win the fucking Lotto!

I hope you all had a great New Years...At least better then this fool's...

And I hope by now, you aren't still feeling like this...

Have a week...

Have a great 2015...

The Beeze.

Monday Moaning

All I want for Christmas....Well I have my two front teeth, but I don't have these two Brit models!

Over the last month or two I haven't written about sports...And I won't be again...I haven't seen any...Seriously, Saturday night I watched the third period, OT and shootout of the Bluejackets game...That was all I've seen...In my business, the Holidays is know as "the Season" and the season has been a busy bitch...

My days off have been non-stop chaos over the last couple weeks...Running around with the kids and all their crap going on...Both the girls birthdays...trying to get stuff done for Christmas...We just hammered out the shopping this past week...The wife and I knocked it out in 2 hours...Throwing elbow, tripping old ladies, whatever it took!

We took the kids to see Santa, and stopped at a pet store in the mall...Suddenly, this whole family wanted me to crap money and by another dog...We already have one that they all wanted, yet getting them to walk him is like pulling teeth...So, the foot came down hard, I wasn't getting another dog that would end up mine, I'm fine with Finnegan...And I don't have an extra $1000 dollars or more for a damn pet store dog...I'd rather rescue one or adopt from the APL...Shit, I was already wondering how I was going to pay for all the other shit, then they want to try and sneak in a dog...Bite me!

I was thinking about what to write...It's days before Christmas, do I really want to get into all these asshole protesters again....Protesters who feel it's okay for them to use force, but not the police...Yeah, they can blow me!

Did I want to talk about Police officers being murdered...No...It's fucking horrible...All these ass-hat, race-baiters like Al Sharpton, and these idiot protesters get complete fucking idiots wound up, and they decide they'll make some noise, and rally the cause by shooting cops...No, you just ruined your cause, or what you thought was your cause...Fucktards!

It's just days before Christmas, and I'm not feeling Christmasy...It's rather depressing when major motion pictures are being cancelled because some angry little bitch had some hackers sift through rich people's emails...And police are being killed because people are mad that a scum-bag who had been arrested 30 times, resisted arrest, and got himself dead...And people are saying "Black lives matter!"  But apparently they don't care about police lives...Well, lets be honest, they don't give a shit about any lives...They just want to bitch and have an excuse to act like assholes...

I love Christmas time...But there's no snow on the ground, and the news is full of hate, and mistrust, instead of caring, love, and peace...I'm going to remove the news apps from my phone...I'm not turning on a news station either...In my limited time off of work, I'm going to hunker down with my kids and watch Christmas movies...I've got to get my Christmas vibe on before I choke the shit out of some one!

I'll have to listen to some of those tunes I posted last week...And this one too....





I guess that the best thing to do...Put on some Christmas tunes and movies, and hang with the ones you love the most...and try to block out all the bullshit!  I'm going to get on with that...Sorry for the short, rambling, post...

I wish you and yours a very Merry Christmas...

The Beeze

Monday Moaning

Are you ready for the Holiday season!?!

I spent Saturday getting the Christmas tree up, decorated, then the outside lights...Yep, I'm already over it...Oh wait...We haven't bought a single gift for anyone...Where the hell is Santa when you need his fat ass!?!

Santa....What the hell...The Santa question was finally asked in our house...Our oldest turned 13 last week, and Friday asked my wife about the fat man...My wife, be a softy, and not wanting to admit to our children growing up, continued to try to push the myth...Our oldest is smart, and kinda knew the truth, but she's a very sweet, innocent  soul, and wanted to believe...So when I got home from work, I had to have the talk with her...Including, the part where she isn't allowed to blow our cover to the other two....I put a positive spin on it, and how the idea of Santa brings so much happieness, and can bring the best out in people, and so on...She took it well...I could tell she was upset, but she's okay...It was tougher on my wife, who was making smart ass comments in front of her the next day about what a jerk I was for not believing...

So, college football set the 4 team playoff...Not shocking that Alabama is in...FSU ran the table, can't screw them, even if they a bunch of criminal fucking assholes...Oregon got in...They're bad-ass and never afraid to play anyone...and then Ohio State, with a 3rd string QB destroyed Wisconsin in the Big-10 Championship game, saving this whole system from what was going to be a major controversy...TCU and Baylor...The polls kept ranking TCU ahead of Baylor, even though Baylor had beaten them straight up...Suddenly it was easy to just jump Ohio State ahead...It also helps that Luckeye fans have proven that they travel well, 'cause we all know money is always going to be a factor...Since I hate Alabama, and FSU, and Ohio State, I'll bee pulling for the Ducks...But the 'Bama OSU matchup should be a good game...We'll see...

Now, I touched on this shit last week, or the week before, or both...All you protesters, while many are being peaceful, and I respect your right to assemble, and all that happy horse shit, IT'S ILLEGAL TO BLOCK TRAFFIC...Yes, it's against the law for you fuck-tards to shut down highways, and bridges and tunnels...Nothing will make me more happy when a mayor finally gets tired of this shit, and gives the order to turn the fire hoses on you fuckheads...Just wait until and ambulance can't get through and some one dies...Manslaughter charges for all you dickheads...

And another tip...If you don't want to get physically taken down by the police, listen to them...Don't resist arrest...You'll actually stand a better chance in court if you don't resist...If you listen, and don't act like an ass, they're more likely to listen to your side as well...want to act like ass, resist, well maybe you get choked out...

Sadly, the hands up shit hasn't stopped yet, but then again, neither did it's martyr, Mike Brown!  But now we have people laying down and saying they can't breathe...You know what would make things better...If you dolts went to work and contributed to the economy...

I find it humorous how we are getting bombarded with stories of white police shooting, hurting or killing black people...But nothing is being said about the constant black on black crime that goes on everyday in this country...Go to Chicago for a week...It's fucking constant black on black carnage...Checkout Detroit...And I haven't mentioned the hate crimes that take place everywhere that are black on white...Those get hushed up, but they happen everyday...

I'm not trying to make this about race...I'm just pointing out the fact that awful shit happens everyday to everyone, not just you...I don't think we should be looking at just police, or black people, or white people...We should be looking at all of ourselves, because we have become a very violent, uncaring society, and I fear for my children's future...

That's enough of my sermon...

Have a week...

The Beeze.

Monday Moaning

This week's Monday Moaning is feeling slightly different...Sure, I managed to post a pic of a nice set of cans...That's kinda what I do here...But the words won't be wrapped up in tits, ass, and sports...this week I'm looking a little deeper inside myself...

On this Monday, an old friend, a childhood friend, is being laid to rest...I hadn't even thought much of her over many, many years...Random, occasional memories from the distant past pop up once and awhile...But not often...Then another old friend posted an old pic of them together, and it got me asking questions...It seems many of us lost touch with her, and a couple had been looking for her...They found her, fighting cancer for the second time, and losing this time...

For two weeks the images of her face, an amazing smile seemed to be haunting me...Had I been a dick to her at times? Of course I had, I was dumb, horny kid, and she had boobs...I'm sure I said and did idiot stuff...Had I been nice? Had I been a good friend? I know I had at times...I do have some memories left in this head full of voices...But clearly I hadn't been a great friend...I won't lie, I've been somewhat surprised by how much this old classmates passing has bothered me...Yes, 38 is far too young to die...But it's more then that...

I remember when I first got on Facebook, and all this other social media...How fucking cool was it...I was suddenly reconnecting with old friends, and connecting with new ones...Awesome...Well, it's easy to say we reconnected, if that means I 'saw your kids pics on facebook'...'I favorite your tweet'...But are we really reconnecting? Maybe we're just getting a glimpse of our old friends lives, as well as giving  a glimpse back...

Yes, we all grow up...We change over the many years...We go different directions...We get jobs, get married, have kids, We gain weight, we lose it...Well, you may have lost it, I haven't...We pay bills, and more bills...(by the way, anyone have an extra $10,000?)....We lose track of time, let alone people...Our plans don't always work out as we hoped, or expected, or wanted...Sometimes for better, sometimes for worse...

It's not hard to lose track of friends...The hard part is keeping them in our lives...Finding the time do more then just post something on facebook, or shooting a text blast...I mean actually talking...Seeing each other...Life and our obligations get in the way easily...But I want to make a slight change in my life...I want to make time, no matter how brief, to be a better friend...To actually see some people I use see...That I use to know...I' not sure how, and I'm sure it will be a pain in the ass at times...But an old friend named Lauren made me realize that I've lost touch with a lot special people over the years...At the end of or time at St. James her quote in the memory book was "Get out there and change the world, you lazy bums!!" 

Well, I may not be changing the world, but I'm gonna work on changing my world slightly...

Rest in Peace Lauren

Monday Moaning

I posted this picture to start this blog, about 45 minutes ago...I've been surfing around the net looking for something to inspire me...But nothing got me going...So, I'm just going to tap these keys and see what happens...

I can't write about sports...I haven't watched any this week...Oh wait...I saw about 5 minutes of the  BU vs. BC Hockey game Friday night...But that was it...

Friday evening Molly spent at my parents...A little sleep over with grandma and grandpa...So, the oldest got to take a test drive at watching little Beeze...She's always been a Mother Hen, so we weren't worried...So what did we do?

We went and looked at a house we can't afford...The wife wants a bigger house...I wouldn't mind either but there is the whole issue of trying to sell our house as well...We would also like to be a better school district...Our oldest is having nothing to do with us moving...Luckily, she doesn't need to worry...It's not happening right now...Just not there financially...Plus, this house was overpriced...When the relator describes the kitchen by saying, "It's kind of queer!"  Well, that's not gonna help sell it...We walked in the front door, and almost smashed into the kitchen island...They redid the kitchen, expanding it, and screwing up the flow...Plus, they slacked off on a lot of finishing work...The living room was huge...The master bedroom was huge...It had 4 bedrooms total...All good size...2 baths...Both on the second floor...No yard...and needed a new hot water tank, furnace, washer, and dryer, and some plumbing work...

Good luck getting that asking price dipshits!

Then we went out to dinner...A place called Ferris Steakhouse...The food was good...She had a Filet, and I had Prime Rib...We started with Bruschetta...I had a Caprese salad...I forget what salad she had...She finished with Crème Brulee, and I had a Triple Chocolate cake...The Moscow Mules were good...And well, the key for all my restaurant reviews, that gets them a positive grade...I got road head on the way home! Good Job Ferris Steakhouse!

And Saturday morning we had some classic morning sex...It's so nice not having a 3 year old (almost 4) waking you up at the crack of dawn on a Saturday! Thanks grandma and grandpa!

The rest of Saturday was work...I finally saw Molly at 5:44 AM Sunday, when she puked in our bed...Why, we have no idea...But then she felt great, and was quite the chatty little shit for the next hour, filling me in on her adventures...Then come 11:00AM it was back to work for a long Sunday pounding...

And now, "here I sit broken hearted, I came to shit and only farted!"

I've got some music going on my iPhone...It's on shuffle..."Captain Jack" by Billy Joel is on right now...




It made me think about a girl I dated oh so many years ago...She put this song on a mix tape...Yeah, I'm that old, fucking mix tapes!  She had this thing where she'd tell me to imagine I was on an island when I was having issues...Either stressed, or angry, or whatever...But you know what "Captain Jack" is? what the song is about...Shooting heroin...Holy shit, I think that bitch wanted me to kill myself!

No, she wasn't...She wasn't hip enough to understand drug lingo!

How's this blog working out for ya...Just a wacky guy babbling while listening to music...What's song will be next?

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It's a pretty cool tune...Especially since in it's original form it was done in a techno, club style...I'll stick to this jazzy, mellow version...

I'm sorry for this rambling through writer's block post...It feels like I'm writing in a High School journal...Hopefully I'll get my shit together...

The Beeze

Monday Moaning...Yes, I'm Late....

I was drunk!

It was a crazy busy Sunday night at work, and I had to buy the guys a drink...And I needed one myself...And suddenly it was a few more...I got home, ate some leftover pot roast and passed out in the chair...The dog enjoyed some scraps!

He definitely enjoyed them more then he enjoyed his Halloween costume...

Look at his face in this next one with Molly and Little Beeze...

He looks pissed!

So, the media/news these days is driven by what is going "viral"...What is trending on Twitter...What the big YouTube video is...And this past week, this video got all kinds of heat...




The Internet, and the so-called "news media" were shocked at men still "Cat-call" women...WHY? Seriously, how the fuck is this shocking? Men are pigs...I'm a man, and I'm a pig...I can be honest about it...Most of us can...But seriously, watch the video...

OK, homeless guys said shit...That's what they do...I live in Cleveland, I've seen homeless bums and pan-handlers...They talk, to anyone, about anything, and nothing...Now you throw a chick with tight pants and a tight top into the mix...Holy-fucking-game-on!

Yeah, I said it...I'm calling them on this shit...She's not a 10...But she isn't wearing baggy pants, and an oversized hoodie like she does at home, while stuffing ice cream in her face after her latest breakup...She painted on some jeans, and got a nice, tit-snugging shirt on...The chance of "cat-calls" just multiplied by 10...

Next, I'd like to see the whole fucking ten hours she did this...Did she really say nothing the whole time? Clearly this was edited to give us an example of the elite scumbags...Were there any nice guys that didn't stare at her ass, but looked in her eyes and tried to have a chat...Maybe spit some real game...Offer to take her to lunch, or meet for coffee some time...Probably were a couple good guys...She's probably fucking one of them now...

Do, I have any facts to back up my claims...No more then this bullshit video does, by insinuating that all guys are one step away from being a rapist...As a matter of fact, most of the comments made to her, were not offensive at all..."Have a nice evening"...."Hi Beautiful"..."How you doing?" "How you doing today?"...One guy even said, "Smile!"  Heaven for-fucking-bid...And you know what, when guys say "DAMN!" it's fucking compliment...Be happy some one gives a shit enough to look at you, let alone, inform you that they are attracted to you...Be happy, some guys let you know you're fuckable!

I'm sorry folks, but our media has made some bullshit into a story, again...And while I'm here...That bitch, Brittnay Maynard, that the felt the need to tell the world she was going to have herself wacked (yes I know that's not the technical term)  because she was dying...Why do we care?  Assholes kill themselves every day, and no one gives a fuck...So she was sick, and dying...We all are, just at different rates of speed...But she had to have her "Look at me" moment before she died, because that's what our society has become...If some one would have given her a TV show, she'd still be alive and would want us all to watch her bite it during sweeps week...You know what, Glad she did herself in...One less needy gash on this Earth...

I also found it amusing the number hugely religious people I know who were all about this chick, "Dying with Dignity"...Yeah, I though suicide was a sin fuck-sticks!?!

I feel I have come across as a woman hater today...I'm not...I love you ladies...I just hate bitches!

And while I'm sitting here on the unpopular side of things, all in with offending people...I would also like to defend Chris Rock for his Monologue on Saturday Night Live this past weekend...Chris Rock hit some touchy buttons making jokes about the Freedom Tower, and the Boston Marathon bombing, and tied it all in with how commercialized this country is...People seemed to hear Boston Bombing, and didn't really bother to listen to where he was going...




Dude said some smart shit, and some funny shit...Pull your panties out of you crack, and grow up people...

I always revert back to the late, great Patrice O'Neal when it comes to "funny" and you can joke about anything....





That's what I got...

Have a week...

The Beeze.

Monday Moaning

Hello Gang! I was looking at some past Monday Moaning stats, and realized, that this lovely Brit model, (my favorite) Rosie Jones has graced the top of more editions of Monday Moaning, then any other lovely I have posted...

I was also surprised to see just how many pictures of my kids made it into posts...(Especially baby Molly)  Why was I looking up these things?

Well, I was fully prepared to sit here and type out my last Monday Moaning...Last as in, that's it, I'm out...I told Sully and Jeff this week that for the Gab to be what I want it to be, it would be best if I wasn't involved...I've been often absent as a owner/member...Work has eaten up a ton of my time...I try to spend as much of what is left with my family...I have little interest in sports, mainly, because I don't have the time...Hell, Notre Dame played a huge game against FSU and last week the last thing I wanted to do was write about the cock-sucker refs, and what piece of shit Jameis Winston is...So I didn't...

I've had a number of non-sports ideas/topics I wanted to write about, and just didn't...I've had a bit of an 'ahh, fuck it' mentality...Whether that's from being tired, or stressed, or frustrated, or depressed, I don't know...But I don't like it...

Even on my days off I often have to field texts, or calls from work...It's the nature of beast...I barely see my two oldest kids compared to before, and right now, and my son is going through some things, and he needs all the time I can give him...I'm not willing to get into it yet, because we just aren't sure where it's going...There has been a lot of change in our house, and quite a bit of juggling...And I ain't no juggler! It's been tough...

But as I started looking at old stats, and posts, I realized just how much of my life has been shared here, and just how big a part of my life this has become...So, maybe the best way to shake this funk, and work through some of these trials and tribulations, is to push myself to keep writing...Write what's going on...Write what's driving me crazy...Write these other ideas...

So let me ask this of you...Are you okay with me writing whatever is in my head instead of forcing out some half-hearted sports talk? Are you okay with me being a part-timer, when it comes to getting in here on days other then Monday, so I can do what I have to with my juggling act?

If you're okay with that, then I'll keep posting Rosie Jones pics, along with others, along with my ramblings...It might be the therapy I need, and maybe I'll get back to sports...

But right now, this is the most important thing in my world...

Not the giant life-sized Transformers...The kids!


Something else I had done a lot in Monday Moaning was pop in some music...So, I'll close with this...And just know, when this was recorded,  this girl was 16...Fucking talented!





Have a week...

The Beeze.